Maybe it’s me who is ridiculous

I’ve read through this post, it feels like I’m polluting this space :-(

(Volunteering, meds, pets, not an option - allergies)

Those thoughts come from me, not because of anyone here.

Maybe I’m intrinsically wrong, not ok, all that other stuff :-(

Maybe I should be grateful that the parental units rejected me :-(:

Others deserve gentleness and kindness. I try to be kind and gentle.

Maybe, for some unknown reason, I don’t deserve gentleness ...

I feel like deleting this (same stuff different day :-( why can’t I “just snap out of this” )

I’ve been told off... by so many people..

I’ve been disliked... by so many people.. including the family of origin ...

I can’t take meds (and I was even flamed on another website for mentioning this )

I don’t know what’s “wrong” with me .....

I try to ... function etc (all the usual stuff)

Maybe I’m just too “boring” or “annoying” for a therapist to want to listen to me

I don’t really want to be on this planet at all.

Maybe I’m “just a whiner”

(Dxd complex developmental trauma, severe anxiety, depression etc)