Yes...you sound a lot like me. Will I be judged by the Others actions?...you know I will...looked at, laughed at, judged, called names (been there).. I’m always on guard trying to stay me out of fear of discovery or judged something that I’m not. I do it, too.

I’ve spent a lifetime in fear to late and I’m sick of it...but it will continue...and getting help isn’t going to change it because I will always be me with my Others doing their own thing. So... this is how it is...they don’t like it..kiss my a..! Lol

People pleasing...****

Thinking about a tattoo of DID across the forehead, lol. Not really...would be nice though where you are instantly understood and accepted.

Will this mode of being ever go away? I doubt it...just got to swallow hard and keep going. Making deals like scheduling with my other parts like who gets home time, work time, playtime, or specific jobs help.

Most everyone don’t know of my condition because we are very secretive... but when we go shopping...yes self-conscious creeps in. It’s no fun fighting your own mind.

People think I’m multitalented and a genius...and at awe of my talents. Little they no that my experiences are stored in parts and that part contains all the techniques of that talent. I tell them that my brain doesn’t store memories like theirs do and that I don’t think like they do...they will never get it....which makes me feel unique in a good way...but if they knew what some of my other parts are (female parts)...let’s say I’d move away.

Anyways...this is life for us likening it or not...there are always room for improvement and adventure. It’s just a choice.