Hi Sepiida! I read through your post and I identified with it a lot! (I also have a post talking about how I feel and you're more than welcome to check it out!) I'm in love with a fictional character too (he's just 3D animated, but isn't it almost all the same haha?), and just like you I'm romantically and sexually attracted to him too. I imagine doing little cute things with him like dates, and also some really sexy times.

I also understand how you feel about trying to be "socially acceptable" and find a real husband/boyfriend. I'm in my early twenties, and have a pretty successful life like you described, but I sometimes feel like I can't connect with men on an emotional/sexual level like I do with my fictional guy. Just no one feels as good as him.

Basically, I feel a lot of ways you do and I'm open to talking about it all. I don't have much of anyone that understands how I feel IRL, and from your post it seemed the same as well. I just tried to PM you but my account is too new for it to go through :<