Yesterday the littles were anxious for Cleo’s surgery of which she did find, but right now it feels like I’ve been crying all day even though I haven’t. I know earlier we were upset over everyone else allegedly getting a raise...but that was replaced with this weird feeling...I can’t work.

I feel like I’m in an unreal environment...the day seems brighter much nostalgic, like looking through the eyes ofa child...fresh, new...yearning for the early years.

I also now can’t feel like I’m moving forward when driving..l can see we are...but it doesn’t feel like it.

Anyone ever felt like that?

I think a little has co-emerged because for hours this morning we stressed on adult dealings like asking for a raise, the triggering of strife and confusement over people relating...some one (co-worker) on purpose messing with my head...it felt like lots of pressure and stress with my head imploding...

Now I’m dealing with tons of derealism...nothing feels real...like this phone, room...just staring.

Gotta force myself back to setting this plumbing, hopefully it’ll settle this down.