i have always felt like am worthless i dont think am worth very much am surprised when people say am good at anything my mind is so negative that i make myself feel like **** i self injure and i have been trying to stop my sponsor ( i go to AA) says i need to try and accept myself am also trans i hate my body it to me feels its not right not they way id like my body to be male i have eating disorder issues i want to be stick thin under weight mostly and no fat at all am obese very very obese i have very low self esteem i treat my self like **** and i dont think am good at anything i have never done anything amazing with my life no kids no job no academic study my life has no point at all
i have married my husband am cut off from my family as my family are toxic i have friends and there amazing one of my friends wants me to try and treat myself better but i feel i cant i hate myself so much i dont know how to love myself at all
there has been abuse in my past i feel like am something that just get used not worth anything how can i start to love myself