T gave me a card. T sat with me while I stared at her tissues, willing myself not to cry. Told her was having really negative thoughts about myself since my dog died. T asked what I was doing with those thoughts. I was hoping she wasn't asking what I thought she was askin g, so I asked what she meant. She asked was I SH. So I said yes. I also admitted to the SU thoughts. T got me to contract with her for when I feel like maybe I might act on the SU thoughts. I didn't point out that if I decided to do something, I wouldn't tell anyone. I also refused to tell her what my plan is. I think maybe that irritated her a little bit. Whoops. Maybe should have said have no plan, but I try to be truthful. T thinks I should have another dog, but I can't afford it. My dog that died was one I haf since I was a kid, so she was a family pet and I could count on my immediate family members to help support her vet costs because she was seen as their responsibility, too.