I dissociate in several different ways, but I wonder if this also is dissociation:

Especially at night, before going to sleep, in the dark, it would feel like everything both inside me and out was moving very fast and very slow at the same time. The fast movements feel sort of like when you lift a carton of milk that you think is full, and it's almost empty, so it goes up very fast. It's also accompanied by a feeling that everything is _very_ obvious in a sort of creepy way. The slow movements feel like everything is moving through something thicker than air, like water or something. And all of this would happen simultaneously. I couldn't stop it myself, no matter what I tried, it had to stop by itself, and it felt very creepy.

I have asked both my current therapist and others about it, but noone seems to know what it is. But it has to be _something_, cause my sister used to have the exact same thing. I experienced this regularly, and quite often, from as far back as I can remember, and until in my early twenties.

The reason I ask this is because I'm thinking it must mean that I had some kind of troubles from a very young age. Or can you dissociate (if this is indeed dissociation) even if everything in your life is just fine? I know I was living with emotional neglect from about 11 years old, but I think it might have started way before that, I just can't remember. I know my mother became seriously depressed shortly after I was born (not postpartum, but because of trauma), and I imagine that she may have been neglecting me because of it. And I can't talk to my parents about it, cause they just deny everything.