I feel a very big mental confusion in my brain. I can't assimilate things quickly and sometimes I have to ask the person to repeat what them just said because I just couldn't find a meaning in it or because I wasn't focused enough. I've ordinary feelings of depersonalization/ derealization and I can't get out of that hole. My therapist recently discharged me because she said she believed I was well enough and I agreed because I wanted to get away from the feelings I developed for her. I don't understand how I can be so drawn to problems. I don't understand how in everything I do I become so divided that I don't know what I really want. Sometimes I want to improve, but sometimes I don't. This duality of thoughts kills me. I don't even know why I'm writing this, but if anyone has something to say or share, please ... it will be a pleasure.