Yes, I can fully relate to what you're saying Só leigheas, but believe me, it's not that you've failed at all, no, you've obviously tried very hard. It's really that the current methods and approaches to treating our kinds of problems aren't guaranteed to work, are hit and miss affairs, and even the doctors, psychologists etc., will tell you that if you ask them. No, don't shoulder all the blame yourself please Só leigheas, and just focus on figuring out ways to adapt and cope with the realities of life. Tell yourself 'bleh, who cares' and see if that works, heh. [j/k]