I haven't been going strong with my recovery effort for one month. I have only skipped a couple meals and only threw up once. I feel good yet now that the weight is coming back on I'm scared of when I hit the point where I can't handle it. Everytime I get hungry or eat I have the ED thoughts but I overcome them simply cause I want to dissappoint my boyfriend. I never had an urge to recover until he expressed his concern for me. I don't want to relapse but I feel it coming on with every pound I gain.