I tend to google people now & then which I think is pretty normal in this day and age. My husband doesn’t do this, but I think many of us do and I personally don’t think it’s wrong. I’ve googled my T and actually told him about it because it felt a little odd and like maybe I’d gone too far. Fortunately (or unfortunately?) he has very little online presence. He told me he wasn’t bothered by the fact that I’d looked him up and even said he was flattered. However, I recently searched again and found out that he became a grandfather for the first time a week ago. I feel ashamed for knowing this, in part, because my initial reaction was one of sadness. I think I felt sad because I know he’s probably a good grandparent and at least for a brief moment I had an awareness that I had no parental support when I had my children. Seeing a picture of his grand baby really made me feel a sense of loss that hit me hard and caught me by surprise. I’m self-sufficient in many ways and didn’t think I cared about this, and was surprised by my reaction. I know I brought this on myself by snooping, but I feel like I’m in a bind because the one person I could possibly talk to about this is the person I can’t possibly talk to about this. I almost feel more distant from him because of this information but obviously I can’t tell him about it. The feelings I’m having will probably just pass on their own. I’m just feeling a little bit down about it and wondering if anyone has any words of wisdom.