for me, I think, growing up as a child, I grew up in a sort of bubble. because of all the abuse I experienced, and all the hold over me- decision making was never something I got the chance of doing, it was all made for me.

now of course I'm away from that place and can make my own decisions, but it feels wrong.. it feels like I don't have that right, and I feel in many situations- things still need to be decided for me (they arn't, I decide them myself), but it's hard and I feel if I do, I'll be punished.

I will also say that a lot of concepts that are familiar to people, are not so familiar to me- because of the same reason.. never was exposed to them, never was allowed to find out about them etc etc