Sorry about your continued challenges, rainbow A support group of others struggling with similar physical issues and/or depression might not be a bad idea, it can be very helpful to talk with people who know exactly what you are going through because they are just experiencing or have experienced the same. Maybe you could also find some new friends among them? I met one of my best friends in a mental health-related peer support group and it's currently one of the personal relationships that I appreciate the most, I think it is for both of us.