I'm getting angrier and angrier that I can't hurt myself. I'm getting really agitated. I had one of the most stress days I can have just going to walmart. I can't wait for my husband's family to leave. Last night I had to take an ambien because I was freaking out that it felt like bugs were on my skin and falling out of my hair.

Tomorrow is Miguel's 16th birthday party. We're having about 20 people over.