I still don't get it? Why do I want to hurt & scar myself up? It hurts like hell. Been doing it a long time over 25 years, yes you heard it right. As I get older the wounds do not heal as quickly.Oh well. Every Day is a battle. And I'm getting tired. One Day at a Time approach works well, distraction: doing other things is good, for a while - but what or when is the "Ah Ha Moment" or "Enlightenment" coming when the harmful thoughts & urges will END. My T said he's never had a patient work so hard in therapy. I want to get better!! If I knew what to do, I'd do it! Can somebody please help me??? Thank you so much.