Hey,

take it easy on yourself. You know after a while imho i think it becomes almost an addiction as well as a coping mechanism. I still have urges and im 77 days i think....dont even know right now.

You are doing well. its ok to feel this way. we all do. I still have urges after so many days - heck ive heard people a year out of it still having urges. its up to us to decide that we deserve better than si. You deserve better than si. maybe one day in a perfect world there wont be any? dunno but its a nice thought.

Be gentle to yourself. Smile today. Im here holding your hand and sending gentle hugs your way.

Colleen