I am sorry for your parents' death. My deepest condolences.

I feel bad that you were lied to, you deserve to be told the truth. This cannot be changed, as the psychologist has her own psyche and way of treating clients.

There are several things to consider.

- You did not fail anyone. It's not like the psychologist came to your home and asked, "Will you be my client? I infer you have disorders that need therapy. Please respond." So STOP feeling guilty. The psychologist has legal issues to dwell upon (unfortunately rather than psychological ones) and she probably thought it was best at that time. But it is NOT your fault. Heck, my psychiatrist believes I am too stupid for therapy.

- It's not like that you don't deserve to be helped. Are you a cannibalistic serial killer like Hannibal Lecter? Nope. You are a person that has guilt that he was wronged and believes it's his fault. If we believe everyone who is ill and is victimized for it (think about old psychiatric hospitals) didn't deserve to be helped, we have a misunderstanding there.

- It's not like you're being punished for your Dad dying. We all are after all organisms and death, like every organisms, is inevitable. Is it okay that you feel guilty for your parents' death? Of course not. You should tell your psychiatrist, and turn down his authority for treatment if you do not like it. It's not the doctors or therapists that are to be blamed for patient's suffering, but it's just how the legal system works.

My best wishes to you.

(Remember, it's not possible to study psychology objectively because we all are humans. You cannot carry your degree or lawsuits with you once you die. Why all the guilt for something she did? She thought it was best to not tell you you may have BPD, and later told your psychiatrist that you have BPD, and both disagreed each other. Ask your psychiatrist to be on meds only to avoid further confusions. That'll save you money and pain and time too.)