You cannot possibly understand how much I can relate. So much I am adding you to friend list.

Despite the fact that I believe I am highly intelligent (am interested in psychology too, currently going for pharmaceutical sciences since colleges here don't offer psychology degrees.) and despite the fact that I was

1) Abused as a child -- One of my teachers put me in a bag where I almost suffocated while I was in pre-primary. I have no memory of my childhood because of it. Before that my dad threw me on the wall when I was three months old.

2) Isolated from society -- My parents believed that the world outside will do me great harm and figured out isolating me from my relatives and peers. This included me not going outside on my own and not letting any peer or relative visit me while at home. And going outside only for school.

3) Was bullied in my early classes so much that I vomited while going to school all the way. Even the teachers picked on me. This lead me to have a life crippling anxiety. I don't talk much about it.

4) And a lot of other things. Including all boys considering me a retard.

I believe you should do your best to mentally improve yourself.