I'm sorry you decided to leave us, Guest. But I know how it is. This is my second time around here on PC. I don't know as you'll ever see what I'm writing here. But I just thought I would leave a quick note saying that I don't believe what you did when you were 8 or 9 could in any way be considered sexual abuse. I'm sorry you carry so much guilt. And I hope that, in some way, you can find a path to deep peace within.