I feel totally in control at the moment. I have a lot of things on my mind, it's racing and so am I behind the wheel HA (only partly true). I know I say this a lot, but what if this is just the manifestations of a really good mood? I don't know. I mean it wouldn't explain the psychotic stuff the other night but I don't know what to call this if it isn't some form of mania. I just can't recognize it as such. I'm buzzing but only part of the time. Right now I feel totally normal. A little pressured to talk but again what if I'm actually stable? Impossible, but maybe?

I don't want to increase my meds because the side effects kind of stink. Seroquel freaks me out at night. I only take it when I'm REALLY actually manic. Not for simple energy boosts like recently. It's escalating, yes, but this is still under control and I will see my therapist on Wednesday and she'll be the judge as to whether or not I'm stable.

Thanks for your concern, though!