Oh, I’m very DID- but not on paper, so as to not offend anyone (silly me)... I just lumped a group of letters together to not be declaring something- I let you all be the judge...I’m just here to relate, vent, and gain insight through the experiences of others like myself.

If I was OSDD (I’d rather be)...I would have a greater sense of self over this sense of no control, missing memories, time jumps, alters taking over ruining my version of life.

I have all kinds of Dissociative events...I’m so prone to dissociation....mini dissociation might be a wrong way to describe it...more like dissociative events that I catch myself entering and to try snapping (grounding) out of- mini being a time limit, before I get lost in the daze and hurt myself. Keep in mind...a lot of it is tied in to constant non-stop flashbacks, sometimes one right after another, which distracts me outwardly like reliving the thought, everytime a part steps forward to say something (like all the time), everything is a trigger....it is a constant moment to moment battle to stay focused and present with this mental barrage of triggered Dissociative events. It’s a wonder that I can function- good enough to hold a job is about all that matters.

This has been a lifelong ordeal...and I wish it would just go away. :/