I think this has just led me into the realm of understanding myself a whole lot better. Realising that hey I do have an inner world and its very entilted to have its reactions. I've lived in the outside world dictated by everyone else but myself in how I should feel that I had never even begun to develop my own inner world. Maybe thats why I've always been like a leaf in the wind blowing in which ever direction the strongest blast is coming from beause I have not rooted in my own place of standing...!!!!