i talked to a new person today. anxious as hell! I responded to something, they responded back, I said one more thing and now silence. ughhhhh! I can't breathe! It's like the most terrifying thing in the world for me when I put myself out there and get nothing.

ok, well, I vented here now so I feel better. But you know, it's called low self esteem and also sortof this post trauma. Being ignored and then being rejected. I've always had this fear of rejection from silence, now it's just amplified! ( i realize this sounds very much like borderline personality disorder)