I slept all day yesterday and feel much better after a busy week at work. I am not as irritable and feel much calmer. I am still taking my medication daily so this helps too. I am still talking to the man I thought I would stop seeing. He is doing ok and is happy. I'm happy for him and hope to survive myself. I am saddened by by the suicide death of Anthony Bourdain. It came as quite a shock. But, I realize he must have had some deep dark issues that were not dealt with well. May he rest in peace now! I feel depressed too at times but realize it is mostly due to stress. Thus, my taking a day off sleeping and resting helps me tremendously. I feel a whole lot better now. I feel refreshed. My mind is not rambling either. I can think more clearly. I am happier now. I have nobody near me who can help me. I have to help myself to survive. It is hard living alone in a foreign country. But, I am doing ok and surviving so far.