I don’t have any advice for you. But I did want to respond and just say that you are not alone. I am a grandma 👵🏻 and I still feel like a vulnerable little girl on the inside. My therapist says that I am not giving myself credit for the improvement that has been made, but my therapist is not living inside me. I am and I know how sensitive the little girl inside is. And she is me. All the improvements my therapist refers to are not me, they are instead skills and techniques learned that help protect her. They are important things to know and to use. But they are not me.