Therapy is. Not optional ain my case, nd certainly not my choice. He is good about this,doesn't push me or try to make headway.we both get mutual satisfaction from our interactions.

I have had a severely screwed up childhood, followed by a spectacularly destructive young adulthood which eventually lead to me being required to see someone if I wished to lead a "normal" life.

Abuse did not lead me to fear abusers but to become curious of their motives.
Violence did not make me afraid of confrontation, and led me to make questionable partner choices.
This hasn't changed, although I am stable

Having hopeless parents didn't make me hopeless parent....well don't suppose that's for me to say.

So what exactly is the deal. I am seeing a psyche because I have always had volcanic anger issues since I was a toddler, before my parents became a**holes.
And the dissociative episodes with seemingly no triggers.

I can discuss all my history without becoming upset, unsettled or disturbed.
None of it bothers me...It's just life, it happens to everyone.
We are stuck because it isn't history that causes problems, they just are and I am tired of being on the Merri go round.
Any way vent over.