I understand that too. I have missed my childhood foundation too. I cannot develop in any area too. I originally wanted to be a doctor, couldn't, my doc told me. I figured out I could never "help others" in the way I wanted. Then last year joined a coaching institute. Had mostly negative experience with peers. But with teachers had mostly positive experience because they tolerated my yelling and odd behavior that usually was triggered by stress the moment I step outside. I am just so scared by the ongoing vehicles, people, etc. etc. Went to them today and they told me I am not fit to be a teacher either (wanted my students to be doctors.) They told me to open a retail store with my bachelor's degree in pharmaceutical sciences. I am not bashing them but it's the harsh reality of my life. Not a scientist, doctor, engineer or a tuition teacher as I fantasized.


But we cannot reverse time. The best we can do is seek professional help. They may help you and retrain you, with the aid of other if needed. I wanted to post this on time but the power went off.