Thanks for sharing this.
Hopefully you'll get some ideas, from being here on PC, as to what to do. I've been a person all my life, it seems like, who's never been satisfied to stick with anything for very long.
I think it would be good to be able to find one thing you love, stick with it for the long haul, & become really expert at it. Unfortunately that has never been me.
Perhaps it can now be you?