I'm not sure what category it fits into when you're afraid and then you do the thing you're afraid of. Sounds familiar to me, like I've heard about it before, but I'm not sure what it is.

Then again, sexual abuse can be very complicated. Particularly when you're young, you can get mixed up about boundaries and desires. You can find yourself unable to or not even thinking about saying no, you can find yourself even putting yourself in positions for things to happen. You can become promiscuous. I believe it can also lead to doing things to others.

I don't remember very well what I did about things like that. It was usually just a mixture of intimate and mean stuff or doing other things to me that weren't wanted. There were varying different degrees of protest on my part that I don't remember well. Sometimes I don't think I thought to say or do anything, or I may have complained. Apparently I asked someone's father to make them stop doing this mess to me they often did and he didn't because I remember complaining to my mother about it. A lot of times it didn't seem odd or unusual, it's like oh, they're treating me like crap again. I acted out things with stuffed animals and Barbies. I was working out some stuff with Barbies no child should know about. Have no idea how I did. And me and other preteens and early teens did things, with clothes on, that were supposed to be "wanted" if that's possible.