I had a better day today. I got up at 9:30 and cooked my son some eggs so I didn’t spend any money eating out. I got the dishes washed and put a load of laundry in/ I also went to my brothers and spent some time with my niece. She’s so cute. They made lunch so no money spent there either. Then I came home and was exhausted from staying awake until 2:30a last night (not by choice) so I ended up falling asleep for like four hours which I think is gonna screw me over for tonight. I hate that I do that. It would be better for me to just stay up but the boredom gets to me.

I’m hoping to start gardening again. Our gardens are atrocious. The neighbors must hate us. I couldn’t because of my back but it’s getting better so I hope I can at least try to hack through the weeds. I’m gonna start at the side and then work my way around the front and finally the other side. It’ll take a few weeks probably because I won’t be able to do it every day.

My therapist told me I need to make a list of things I can do so that I’m not just sleeping all day during the week once group ends, which I think it does for me on Tuesday. Then we will block out a rough calendar of things to do. I love her, she’s so helpful. She’s so concrete. We don’t just talk, we do. It’s really helpful to me.

There’s a Nami connections group in my town that meets twice a month during the day that I might go to. It makes me nervous to think about going due to my social anxiety but I did go to the dbsa meeting that one time and I didn’t die lol so I might be able to do it. It would be something to do anyway.