I have been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder but I believe that I have bipolar bc I don't have the symptoms of schizophrenia, such as hallucinations or delusions or disorganized/incoherent thinking. I have had two manic episodes in the past 3years but have been generally suffering from depression since childhood. Currently I have been severely depressed for about a year. I experience general anxiety and moderate to severe panic attacks throughout the day. I am on prozac...first on 20mg for 3weeks and then on 40mg for a few days till now....the med is yet to take effect. I am also on lamotrigine(mood stabiliser) and buspar(anxiolytic) that makes me calm and less irritable.

I feel unmotivated and disinterested to do anything. Every day seems like a drudge.

There's no hobby that I enjoy. I used to love going out to malls to watch movies and/or do shopping/window shopping but now getting out of the house seems almost impossible and even if I manage to go out I feel extremely uncomfortable the whole time.

I force myself to do things like watch a soap opera on tv, watch a movie on netflix, listen to music, read a story book or write...hoping that these would become a habit one day and maybe some day I'll get to like them bc a long time back I used to enjoy doing them....

Is there anything else I can do to get back my motivation?