Thanks guys for all response i really do appreciate people responding. I have been told before it's down to loneliness but I was depressed then years ago when I was told this. I feel fine tbh in regard of being off my meds. Not too high not too low. Just stable if that's possible. I'm itching to talk as I have been staying with my parents for the past week. I was talking under my breath last night and again in the shower this morning. I'm seeing my new Psych Nurse on Thursday but I'm worried about what she will say. Being off my meds is one thing. But since I last saw her 1 month ago and I have been off my meds for 2-3 weeks it's not boding well. I hate disappointing people and I always screw up with my meds. I can't stay on them and it's getting annoying now. I'm known to be an atypical bipolar by going on and off my meds. Apparently. I'm wondering if I should tell her about speaking to people?