I have szaffective too with bipolar. I know how you feel that at times you feel unmotivated. I feel this way too at times. I think it is because I am stressed out or depressed. I don't have anxiety attacks. I realized that if I rest or just do nothing for awhile then I get bored and want to do something later. So, it is like a cycle from doing nothing then too much activity resulting in stress then doing nothing etc. Thus, balance is the key. I now do a little bit of this and that and am happy. I still become apathetic from getting excited and doing too much. I have to watch myself. You should have seen me this past weekend. I slept almost 24 hours but finally woke up. I was exhausted. Living with a mental illness makes it difficult to undertake too much stress from work or other situations. I think that knowing your limitations and balancing one's life is key to stability and happiness. I am sorry I am rambling and not making much sense. I hope you find your key to happiness too.