Things like, how much of a bubble I used to live in when I was a kid. That there is no hiding from reality no matter how many defense mechanisms you develop. And as for my frenemies from 2012-2016, the latter was what exactly they taught me. In order to escape from the traumas that other people before them caused, I developed a mentality that I could do no wrong and everyone who told me otherwise was just a jealous hater. That's exactly the self-delusion they unraveled. Yes, they may have been abusive, but let's face it, I was bound to be disappointed anyway, it just so happened that they were the ones who disappointed me. I may still be angry and I may still be mentally asking them to drink bleach and die, but I'm just taking out my anger against reality on them. It's reality which I want to drink bleach and die, not them.