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Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2
Do you have another diagnosis? I always thought the extra thinking was rapid thoughts from bipolar, I mean it was, but also the rapid thoughts of the Others. Once we got on stabilizers, things slowed down a bit.
Maybe you can use anxiety meds?
Do you have a MD to talk to? I get my psych meds through my GP.
Try journaling. Get a notebook and start writing what comes to mind and even suggests to the others that they can write to see what happens.
Maybe get your thoughts organized and written down. You can also take this to your therapist when you get one.
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Yeah... it's definitely been suggested to me I might be bi-polar. I have had a lot of what seemed like manic episodes in the past. I never asked about it because I'm kinda afraid of meds but more and more I've been thinking it's worth a shot.
But I was diagnosed BPD before I was diagnosed DDNOS (guess that's OSDD now? Idk)
Journaling is good for me personally it's just that my parts don't usually want to contribute. I tried again yesterday and all I got was an intense abstract drawing of all black lines everywhere. Just kept drawing like that for hours but I can't understand what they are trying to communicate by doing that. Feels like anger to me but, idk. I don't know why they're angry at me instead of the actual abuse that made me this way in the first place.
Maybe just cause I'm bad at asking for help. BUt then if they're so angry at me for that, why don't they ask? But that never happens. They only take over my body physically in terms of movement, they never take "control."
Thinking in terms of being multiple is weird because I don't know what I should be able to just "force myself" to do or what is maybe supposed to be the job of a different part of me.... I'm pretty bad at manufacturing willpower for things I feel reluctant to do. Actually VERY bad at it.