My mom deserved better than her childhood.
My dad deserved better than is illness.
My brother deserved better in his health/love life.
They all deserved a better daughter/sister than me.

I feel like crying for them. So sad, so unfair...
And i only make things worse for them. Im a mess.
And i feel so lonely. I dont know where to turn to. My mind is a mess. Im sick of all this, of me...
I keep trying to get my control back but the more i try tge less i feel it.