This is somewhat new to me and its eating me alive.

My mother wanted to go to a nami meeting tonight and part of me wanted to go but there's this dreaded fear I have of being out in public places and seeing people I don't want to see. Being in uncomfortable situations. Pretty much anyone I know I don't want to see.

I don't want anything to remind me of my last manic episode.

I made a fool out of myself all over town.

This is all in my mind regardless of who knows me or not I just try to avoid going to the city.

I don't know how to get over this.. I want to move to a whole new place and start a new life.

Its sad because I've lived here my whole life and never felt like this.
The shame and guilt is just too much for me to take in.

Anyone else struggle with this?