This is difficult to explain, but I'm working through a past relationship and something that bothered me throughout it was that I didn't know if I should have felt more for the guy... I could appreciate why many people thought he was very attractive, but he didn't really do anything for me. He felt more like a very good friend or even (ick...) like a brother to me. I guess I didn't know how I was supposed to feel because it was my first ever relationship, and my role models before that had been really twisted... This man was also the kindest person I'd known and I thought I couldn't be so superficial that I would reject him only because I wasn't attracted to him.

I feel I need to let this out... And superficial or not, I now know I need to feel attracted to someone to be more than friends with them. I never want to try and force a relationship again.