As I've mentioned before on this thread, I'm dealing with my mother's new diagnosis of breast cancer on top of the advanced MS she already has. I've been running around like crazy trying to organize and set up her cancer care and going there to take care of her when I can (she lives 1.5 hours away, but when she finishes her treatment, I'm moving her up here, I have an apartment in my complex lined up for her that is wheelchair-friendly). My brother is not helping much, and this is both very aggravating and difficult as a practical matter.

I worry constantly about my mother. Her PT recently said she needs 24/7 home care, which I hope to set up with a social worker who is going to see my mother at her house tomorrow.

I have had a lot of trouble sleeping, worrying and worrying. And then I'm exhausted all day. At least this hasn't led to an episode. I'm glad to see I've been so 'resilient', but I'm afraid I will hit my tipping point.

So, at my request, my pdoc put me on an extra 1mg of klonopin (I take 1mg in the morning's, have for over a decade) at night to help me sleep. I wonder if anyone else takes it for sleep? In any case, I tried it for the first time last night and it didn't work, so I took 25mg of Seroquel on top of it. I finally fell asleep, but today I'm very very groggy, which probably isn't surprising.

I am not a religious person, but have begun to believe in the importance of prayer. Or at least sending good thoughts, good vibes someone's way. Can anyone do that for my mother? The strength she needs to withstand the cancer treatment having MS is tremendous. And me, for that matter? Hope that I don't go into an episode? I can never 'afford' to do so, but most especially not now that my mother needs me so much...