I'm sad my son turns 16 today. We signed new insurance and once he turns 17 our rate goes up anyway so I signed him up for driver's ed today. He'll get his permit for free after taking the class. He's not happy about it. He doesn't want to drive but if we have to pay anyway he minus well have it.

I have only a couple of days to re-certify for hud. I'm not ready for it. I'm finding it hard to care. Thoughts of hurting myself are on my mind all the time now. I can't do that to my son not right now. Oh on top of all that **** SSI has decided to review me once again. It's not like CP and BP get better with time. Actually they get worse. I hate having to make a list of all the things I need help with and that makes me feel like ****. Why would someone want to be with a person who needs so much help day to day? And that's just CP. I haven't even got into my difficulties with BP and psychosis and anxiety. How I can't go out without being scared of people but I can't be home alone because I start to think people are trying to break in and kill me. (even on meds)