I didn't sleep as much last night and I awoke and didn't want to go back to sleep. (I'm in the habit of forcing myself to keep to as strict as possible sleep/wake schedule) I went to bed late, but woke up "on time". I could have went back to sleep but didn't. I suddenly perked up though. Now, my face is fallen, but I'm mentally awake, even though I'm not 100percent sure of what I'm saying.

That being said, I wanted to try this experiement. I wanted to write a little bit while in this state and get some feedback. Not necessarily advice just...

what AM I doing??? Ok, this question sounds very familiar. Ok, a little backstory. I had a working relationship with someone online and we spoke daily via PMs and things were great at first, but then my excitement got the better of me. then my doubt got the better of me, which is the start of this paragraph. I'd start rambling on about something and then question it, outloud so to speak...

maybe this is all just my attempt to reach out to people, not really fully prepared to say something specific, just saying something, but I don't want to be rude either. Don't want to waste your time.

Do I sound crazy to you? Do I just sound sleep deprived? Am I hypomanic because normally I wouldn't send something so incoherent as this...or would I? have I? See, that is my test. I want to write this today and then compare it to something I write on another day)

If you've nothing to say to this, can I maybe just get a hug?
Well, thanks for reading!