Had a ****** *** day today until I went to my therapist. She makes everything better. I think I’m becoming too dependent on her but I don’t care. I actually didn’t want to go because I didnt want to tell her how poorly I was feeling but she didn’t shame me for it. She just listened and then told me to tell my IOP dr about it on Thursday. I really want to go up on the lamictal, not this cursed topamax. I’m not positive but it may be the topamax that’s causing the irritability. It’s the only thing that’s changed.

I’m hoping I’ll leave the program anyway next Tuesday. I’m tired of it. I want to be out in the big wide world, for good bad or ugly.

I’m getting my scar coverup tattoo next Tuesday so that’s good, something to look forward to!