My last pdoc appointment didn't go all that well. She doesn't think the medicine is helping me much. She hasn't seem any marked improvement in my mood since she started seeing me. I started seeing her last year some time. Maybe I am med resistant. I have been on a lot of different meds over the years. I was originally diagnosed in 2005 with bipolar. I don't think I've gotten any better over the years. My anxiety is getting worse the older I get. Right now I am trying to use music to keep sane. I want to scream. I might scare the neighbors if I do. It is late here. Not a good situation right now.