I lied. I am still chatting to him and invited him this Sunday to go to the park. I'm not sure if he will go. I like him much and will worry about my parents and him later. I am a bit nutty due to my illness. I can't help it. I should play the game does he love me or not. Ahhh, I am stupid!! May be, he will turn me down. Then, I will be at a loss. Hmmm, roller coaster ride of emotions is part of my illness as always. I wish I could stop the ride and just enjoy his friendship as it is for what it is. I feel ok but feel bad at times that nothing is ideal, especially with my family.