Thank you wildflowerchild25. I have anxiety every morning, yesterday it was particularly acute. Today is a little bit better. Maybe it isn't the Rexulti.

I forgot to take my night time meds so last night i had no Rexulti or Lyrica but the anxiety is not worse than yesterday. I did manage to get more done yesterday including 2 loads of laundry, cooking a meal, going out for lunch and unloading the dishwasher. Some days it is all I can do to get dressed and go out for lunch with my son.

My son had an out of town interview last friday so he had to get up very early to get to the airport, except he didnt' wake up when he said he would.

When i went upstairs to check in on him, he became enraged and texted me the whole day he was travelling how I was a terrible mother who should be put in jail for the abuse I subjected him to.

I had gone behind my locked bedroom door when he started shouting at 4:45 am how much he hated me so then he switched to text. Instead of mentally preparing for the interview he just texted me incessantly on the airplane and told me I should have had an abortion because I wasn't fit to be a parent...

Needless to say he had a terrible interview. He turned down a different job offer because he thinks the salary is too low and they wouldn't budge. So he gets to spend more time playing video games all day. I am afraid if I try to kick him out he will call the police and have me committed. He actually said no one would believe me over him because of my history. I told him I wanted him to move out then he finally apologized but I am still traumatized from last Friday.

I asked him to load the dishwasher yesterday and he partially did it but he put cans in the garbage instead of bottle recycling and food in the . garbage too instead of composting despite the fact I've told him many times how to do it. If I ask him to help he will do something but it will be not be done properly. I had to go and pull cans out of the garbage.

If he goes to get something to snack on he will leave all the drawers and cabinets he touches in the kitchen open. So then I go an ask him to close them. He will do that but the next time the same thing happens. I feel like i am living with a 4 year old in an adult body.