I've only been diagnosed for about a month. I see my T once a week and have seen the pdoc twice so far. I told both of them about the thought that God was sending me the message to kill myself. She said when I feel like that I need to go straight to the hospital. I'm going to have to figure out at what point in the progression I need to make that step because by the time I thought God was talking to me I didn't want anyone to stop me.