I hope you can clear some air about all this and get your spirits back in good standing.
I do have to add that when I read your posts about you shutting down and isolating yourself it makes almost makes me jealous that you have the ability to do that. As a pregnant, homemaker, mother of three, I find it difficult to find the time to do that. Sometimes I am in need of some isolation myself. Enjoy your time to yourself & reflect on your life. ☺