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Originally Posted by Movingon69
I've only been diagnosed for about a month. I see my T once a week and have seen the pdoc twice so far. I told both of them about the thought that God was sending me the message to kill myself. She said when I feel like that I need to go straight to the hospital. I'm going to have to figure out at what point in the progression I need to make that step because by the time I thought God was talking to me I didn't want anyone to stop me.
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This might have been a mixed state. Mixed states make the management of bipolar I a challenge (not that it is not a challenge anyway!). You have grandiosity (God talking to you), which is manic, and you have suicidality, which is depressive. I personally have tried suicide in such states - it is not that God was telling me to kill myself, but the speed of my thoughts was manic (very rapid) while the content was depressed. I did not gain insight until much later in retrospect. For me personally such states are the most dangerous ones.
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Bipolar I w/Psychotic features
Zyprexa Zydis 5 mg
Gabapentin 1200 mg
Melatonin 10 mg
Levoxyl 75 mcg (because I took Lithium in the past)
past medications: Depakote, Lamictal, Lithium, Seroquel, Trazodone, Risperdal, Cogentin, Remerol, Prozac, Amitriptyline, Ambien, Lorazepam, Klonopin, Saphris, Trileptal, Clozapine and Clozapine+Wellbutrin, Topamax
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