You mean God isn't talking to me?? j/k

Seriously, I've had episodes that I didn't know were episodes before I was diagnosed. I experience delusions that make me believe that I'm God's messenger, sent here to help a specific person in a specific situation. It took me years to accept the fact that it IS a delusion and not reality. I'm religious and want to believe I can influence events for the good by merely being present and praying, but in saner moments I know it's not so.