Near the end of the session, with maybe 5 minutes left, T brought up about my being addicted. To her, to therapy, maybe. I said "I told you I was addicted to therapy long ago." She said something about being connected to people is good, but.... I forgot the rest. She said it was important to talk about addiction. Then the session was over.

I emailed her and asked why now, when I'm in pain every day, do you want to talk about addiction? I want to make it clear she was talking about addiction to people or to therapy, not drugs. I said I felt unsettled because it was at the end of the session and I didn't understand why it's so important. I said I felt like she was punishing me for being attached to her. She answered that she didn't mean to upset me and that it is a framework for us to work with to try to help me.

So she didn't explain much. What does that mean?
I don't want to reiterate my background here. There's validity to the use of the word "addiction". My former T thought I was addicted to her. I came up with the idea and she agreed. Or maybe addicted to therapy makes more sense. But I haven't used that terminology for a long time, and T never has!

It's probably because of my emails last week about thinking of her as a person I'm in a relationship with first, and then, as my T. Or about her breaking my heart.

I know she wants me to take care of my Self and not depend on her. But using the word "addiction"? It's okay that I used it but suddenly she's talking about it! Do you think she read a book?